Good Old Friends

1. spendius at Sun Jul 27, 06:38 PDT 2008: Hi, Ishan , great to see you logging back on good old Fics :-) I was just busy with some family guests, no time for chess. Are you on holidays ? I hope to see you online soon !

That's spendius (Lionel Sagne, Cote de Azur, France) from the FICS chess server. Yes yes, I am logging on to the chess server again these days :-)

This is no loser blog. Its just a reflection of Icy, who has degraded beyond all reasonable expectations. When it is high time to follow and back my instincts, I am wasting time like fools waste water. When it is time for me to improve myself, I am taking the whole world's burden on my shoulders, aiming to improve the world. Absolute madness (which I realise now) has led me to waste time, effort, thought and money on buying CAT form and SimCAT test series and the preparation therein. Ok, some portion of the preparation is indeed helping me sharpen my mental abilities. But how can I justify pursuing CAT at the expense of solving DP?
I need a break. I need time regroup myself and refocus on lost tracks that once lead me to limitless goals. I need to "be more serious towards life".

There are many things I can't write here, but I am looking for someone to share it with. I know I can't, and these private emotions will haunt me till the time I live. But, all in all, I will be more serious towards life. :-)