I feel miserable today. I woke up all night. And was sad to hear mitali's uncle is amidst a medical emergency. Was even more saddened by the sad demise of swati in the morning. Today, i am feeling aweful. Wretched as ever. Awful as ever. God help us in this troubled time.

Good Old Friends

1. spendius at Sun Jul 27, 06:38 PDT 2008: Hi, Ishan , great to see you logging back on good old Fics :-) I was just busy with some family guests, no time for chess. Are you on holidays ? I hope to see you online soon !

That's spendius (Lionel Sagne, Cote de Azur, France) from the FICS chess server. Yes yes, I am logging on to the chess server again these days :-)

This is no loser blog. Its just a reflection of Icy, who has degraded beyond all reasonable expectations. When it is high time to follow and back my instincts, I am wasting time like fools waste water. When it is time for me to improve myself, I am taking the whole world's burden on my shoulders, aiming to improve the world. Absolute madness (which I realise now) has led me to waste time, effort, thought and money on buying CAT form and SimCAT test series and the preparation therein. Ok, some portion of the preparation is indeed helping me sharpen my mental abilities. But how can I justify pursuing CAT at the expense of solving DP?
I need a break. I need time regroup myself and refocus on lost tracks that once lead me to limitless goals. I need to "be more serious towards life".

There are many things I can't write here, but I am looking for someone to share it with. I know I can't, and these private emotions will haunt me till the time I live. But, all in all, I will be more serious towards life. :-)

A great start...

(18:41:09) ICY: how're you??
(18:41:18) ASHWIN SRIVASTAVA: fine man wassup
(18:41:23) ICY: wow, cool IBM logo!!!!!!
(18:41:30) ICY: you joined ibm, kya?
(18:41:34) ASHWIN SRIVASTAVA: yeah man
(18:41:43) ASHWIN SRIVASTAVA: nahi yaar intern kar raha hun
(18:41:43) ICY: wwwwooooowwwwwwwwwww that's soooooo coooooooolllll
(18:41:52) ICY: awesome yaar, congrats :) :) :)
(18:41:55) ICY: what's the project?
(18:41:57) ASHWIN SRIVASTAVA: ........palced in TCS from college campus
(18:42:13) ICY: that's awesome too buddy!!!!! im sure IBM will recruit you soon :)
(18:42:50) ASHWIN SRIVASTAVA: we have to make a product for HUL (u know) that audits their display scheme at various stores across india
(18:42:57) ASHWIN SRIVASTAVA: ....................................hope so
(18:42:59) ASHWIN SRIVASTAVA: !!!!!!!!!!
(18:43:06) ICY: wow, project seems cool...
(18:43:17) ICY: so man, where are u? delhi or banglaore?
(18:43:58) ASHWIN SRIVASTAVA: b'lore
(18:44:06) ICY: coool :)
(18:44:17) ASHWIN SRIVASTAVA: wats up at ur end
(18:44:20) ASHWIN SRIVASTAVA: got placed ??
(18:44:23) ASHWIN SRIVASTAVA: .........
(18:44:28) ICY: yes, infosys
(18:44:36) ICY: not doing intern this summer...